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This blog was once entitled, "unedited. uncensored. unabridged. " Despite the name change, It's still the same old shit...

i am 25 and self absorbed. i check my reflection in the windows i pass by. in the past, my blogs have been highly censored. i care too much about what other people think. this is me...shit and all.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Today, I will not be bitching about boys OR going off on jealousy-fed tangents...

The past year has been a whirlwind. I started this blog exactly 11 months ago and I hardly recognize myself now.

Ok, that's such a load of shit. FUUUCK.

I'm exactly the same. I shop with the same grocery list, listen to the same playlists, and complain regularly about the same exact things. I'm perfectly fine with it. If I wasn't, I would have changed. I have the same bad hang-ups and get the same bad haircuts. I still blog completely inconsistently and I really have no plans to change.

The boys are all the same; as are the girls.

PIJ is dead, though. And my gram, too. And I've been to significantly more places. Change has occurred, but it's been subtle. Morphs. Like the bit about the playlists—lie. They've slowly added new songs or have been phased out. See, I change. In fact, 495 songs have been added to my iTunes collection since October '07. Impressive, right?

I live in a new country. I surf. I have a new desire to write a book. Judging by the amount of traffic on my blog, it'll surely flop, but in the past year, I've gotten better at accepting failure. I guess that's what happens when you graduate from university, sit on your ass doing nothing for a year, and fully accept what's become of you.

I still freak out when mercury is retrograde and during this time, I still contemplate murdering a significant number of females in Big's social network. I'm a Virgo.

I play significantly more scrabble and I drink significantly more wine. I read more. I still get lost in my head and often cannot escape; I sink into sad, dark places. I create scenarios that make me afraid to be alone. I'm more dependent.

And this all sounds like some sort of hokey chick flick conclusion, but it's really me just being bored on a Wednesday evening. This isn't an end or a new beginning. Just good ol' rambling. Hope you enjoyed...

1 comment:

Indeterminacy said...

Hey, I'm still around - and I'd love to have a glass of wine with you.